Monday had broken, sunny and cold....all of my children headed off to school....my devotions got done before I left the house, and all was well with the world according to my personal inner balance.
Three hours later, work done, groceries gotten, recycling finished, spine adjusted, I landed at home, still on the positive side of the personal thermometer...
How long will it last today, Lord? The last week has been the edge of the knife for me when it comes to inner balance; all the prayers in the world didn't seem to make a dent in the worry, and there was an alarming upswing in "medicinal" doses of red wine....
So why is today so good? Who knows. I don't care, at this point. I have been praying and praising God in the rough days, so I have enjoyed praising and praying today without the heaviness in my spirit.
Today is like the full scoop of ice cream with whipped cream and chocolate sauce. The full scoop. No half scooped, half melted, half freezer burned, low fat monstrosities.
Other days, it's like someone gave me my helping of goodness with a sieve. A really really holey one. Most of the goodness seems to have escaped before it even gets to my bowl! Who wants to wake up to that?!!! The whipping cream can is clogged, the sprinkles jar is empty, there is no chocolate sauce to be had.....
Thing is, if things aren't going well for me, do I turn around and scoop up my helpfulness and patience and love for others with the same sieve? Does my bowl of goodness have to be full in order for my heart to be full of goodness to share? Do I give from the overflow of my heart or do I give a little from what I feel that I have? Am I waiting for God to move first, so that I can thank Him for what He is doing, or am I thanking Him and trusting that He is moving for me....
Whose bank account am I drawing from today: mine or God's? I want to be generous when I can........I hate stingy people, and I hate to be found stingy in my heart too.
If my heart is to be full of Christ, then it should figure that He should be footing the bill for this scoop today, I think. In fact, I think that He should foot the bill for all the scoops of all my days every day. If I can trust Him and depend on Him to come through with all I need, for myself and for others, before He does, isn't that Faith? No matter how small my faith, Jesus should be able to transform it into a banquet of provision like he did with the loaves and the fish. He should be able to meet my every need. I want to start living like I truly believe it, like Christ is truly changing my life.
I want to put away the sieve and get out the big honking ladle and give what I sometimes feel that I don't have: all my worries, all my cares, and ALL my praise... let Christ take care of the rest.
So, all you who are weary and heavily laden....I encourage you, come to Christ, who will give you rest, and don't be stingy with your prayer and praise as you come. Pour it all out as you do, and let Him take care of the filling upness....He is faithful...
This good day is keeping me going, what is keeping you going?
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