Slumlorddomness is not the ideal fantasy life I was anticipating....
You could say that this rental property has taken our lives by slow storm, creeping in with it's hidden needs and messes.....something that we thought we were prepared for two weeks ago...
Around day 9, both my husband and I looked at each other and asked ourselves what we were doing. One day off a week was not going anywhere near to reviving us from work/home/work/sleep/repeat.
Day 10 brought us face to face for a heart to heart talk about money, relationships and priorities. The Big Three. The outcome of the exhausted conversation, complete with a few tears and hysterical laughing....was that we needed some babysitting for this new baby.
Actually, the outcome of the conversation was that we both agreed it's cheaper to hire someone to work at our investment property than pay someone for mental health support and divorce.
I am very proud of my husband for asking someone else to install the kitchen I just spent Saturday putting together in the living room. Someone else will paint the smoked in basement suite. Someone else will fix the eaves troughs. Thank God, someone else is hauling away the garbage, I don't care how many times BFI has to come over....
Funny thing is, Craig and I have been working on a sermon he has to give this weekend at his J-Men's retreat. And the more that we talk about how God provides....the more we think about this house and all the aspects of it; the renting, the fixing, the purpose of it all. It has prompted my husband to encourage me to let the house rest while we rest, trusting God to help us get what we need to get done, done in time. That was a gift in itself, a new part of our relationship, something I value deeply right now.
This is a good time for this kind of reflection on God, as our prospective awesome clients have now pulled out and there are only 6 days left in the month.......I tell myself, if God can look after the birds, who don't give a damn about anything.....He is surely big enough to look after my needs....the ones that I really care about and spend my time thinking about.
Today, I am going to trade all the time that I would spend on worrying about the rental property and it's needs...and I am going to spend that time worshipping a God who loves to lavish his children with gifts they don't deserve....like awesome spouses, beautiful Fall colors, gorgeous stars in the sky, sunsets that make me breathless, free salvation, and of course, the miracle of chocolate. I am going to accept the gifts that God wants to give to me like peace, and joy and love and security in Him....and even the growing pains that come with letting Him teach me how to be more like him in the midst of a stressful new baby....
My God is a provider...and that is keeping me going today.....what is keeping you going?
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