WARNING: I CRIED WHEN I WROTE THIS AND YOU MIGHT TOO....
Many people have heard my baby story over the last three weeks, but I thought that I would blog it for posterity.
I want to be very clear up front here: I am not talking about a real baby, so if you are surprised by this news and wondering how I could be looking so svelte, keep reading!
For starters, only people really close to me know that I have been recovering from the darkest years of my life, crippled and broken by severe depression. My life went from Most Likely To Be Named SuperMom of the Universe to zero. All I had left was my shell of a body, a fragment of my mind, and a family who watched from the outside. Oh, and Jesus. Let's not forget that when we are weak and helpless and broken, he never walks away.
I decided that I would take Christ's hand, and walk with Him every day through the Valley of the Shadow of Death, for as long as it took for Him to bring me to a place of healing. Rather than run from the pain in my life, I wanted to deal with it.
It's taken meds, no meds, massage, chiropractor, thyroid replacement, hormone balancing, immunity boosting, oversleeping, crying, counselling, vacationing, journalling, praying, take out dinners, Bible reading, cell grouping, church moving, running, and the thousands of prayers of friends to bring me to a place today where I can share the best thing that has happened to me in 7 years.
A house.
February end of this year, God gave me a dream, the first that I have had in years. He gave me a vision in the night about bringing a baby to term, and I wanted this baby! I knew it was not a pregnancy baby, but a revival of hope in my life that only God can bring..so I started praying....
God, give me this baby! All of it! Whatever it is! Whatever comes with it! The good and the bad! I want all that you have for me! I'm waiting to see what it is! I can't wait! Bring it on, Jesus!
After years of having no dreams, no emotions, nothing I cared about in my heart....this baby dream brought a flood of prayers and hopes and emotions that I thought I would never feel again. After living in the dark for so long.....it was and is like I have really truly woken up, and my life is so sweet and good that I can't believe it...
Last month, by a Total God Connection (TGC), I heard that the guy behind us in the alley was selling the house, a revenue property. I phoned Craig immediately, we looked at it, offered on it and got to work. Today, 6 days short of a month, we took possession of the house.
October end, when we move in renters, it will have been 9 months.
This house is my baby. It is the hopes and dreams and plans and wishes and desires of my heart and my husband's for many years now......ones that died in me these last number of years.........but it has come about this year for us, in an awesome symphony of TGCs that boggle my mind. We have received encouragement, support, advice, care, discounts, blessings, and so many wonderful things in the last 24 days that I am overwhelmed. Everywhere we turn, we find favor. Unexpected favor. Undeserved favor.....
This is the great story of my life right now. I tell everyone about the baby that I have, and how God has brought it about for me. As it has unfolded, I have started to tell others that God has a baby for them too; A TOTALLY UNEXPECTED BLESSING THAT WILL CHANGE THEIR HEART!
God's undeserved favor for me today is His salvation....His unexpected favor for me is this house we have bought...but it is more than a house. It is layers of His affirmation of my desires, His direction in my life...His total love.
I would be happy with just His love....but He isn't happy with just giving that....He has so much more for me....and I want it all!
God's favour is keeping me going today; what is keeping you going?
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